#and wouldn't say in front of me why she responded to gf asking 'how are you' with 'i'm gay'

[rezilient-m3]

May 21, 2024

It's been FOREVER since I wrote in this thing. And I honestly forgot about it for months at a time. When I would remember, it seemed too daunting of a task to even consider because of how much shit went down since Sept 6, 2022. lol.

I don't even know where to begin.... last subject was James walking away from his charges. We did have the final date of trial on Dec 13th of 2022. His charges got lessened to "assault on a minor", like to say he hit our daughter and not tried the "sexual interference" he first started out with. So, that was devastating.

So, to move on from that and to try make this a "catch up" post and to make the longest stories ever short... here we go...

Since that court date, the girls had been going to visit their dad (in the first time in 2 and a half years) at their grandma's. I couldn't do much about it. They wanted to see him and knew that they could because the no-contact order had been lifted. Then, on January 13th, they went to live with him. They knew for a week they were going and didn't tell me. I found out by an email from one of their teachers asking if they should pack up their things. So, that was fun.

Anyways, at the time, I did not know shit about the "status quo", and that I could have kept them home with me considering that they've been with me for 2 and a half years by that time. All I knew was there was that last court order from June 2020 that stated he was primary and I got every 2nd weekend. So, I thought I had to let them go. It was a hard night.

There was a guy, Brent, from my past that I had recently ran into on Dec 10/22. I remember the date because it was a Kane Brown concert when I went out that night and seen him. We added each other on social media. He was an old, one-week old bf from when I was like 14 or 15. lol. Anyways, on this night, I texted him to say I was ready to fall off (my sobriety), and he called me. He stayed on the phone with me for over 5 hours to keep me company. That really helped me. Anyways, this guy goes on to be another long story, and is still sort of present, but I don't want to get into that. I just needed to mention him to know how he came to be, and how much that actually meant to me at the time.

Moving on to my life after that. I was still in school. (I am currently going into my 4th year of ISW btw). My dad asked me if I wanted to lawyer and I remember saying that I didn't want to fight for kids that didn't want to be with me. Cuz I knew that they wanted to go. And I said it wouldn't be long until they wanted to come back.

It was March when my oldest said they wanted to come back. Here's the piss off though. I hired the same lawyer to represent me in Alex and I's court stuff. (Idk if I mentioned it before, but him and I came up with our own agreement concerning our son. I didn't go for half of his stuff). But this fkn guy didn't do shit for me for months. Idk what I was thinking. I just assumed he was getting things done as the days, weeks, and months were passing. I emailed every time something went down (pertaining to their dad's drinking and domestic issues with his gf, while my girls were in their care). But nothing. I finally just called the law firm and asked the lady at the front to ask if this guy was still representing me or if I could just get my retainer back to hire someone else. (But since everything happens for a reason), The boss lady that owns the firm called me. She told me she took a look at my file and was very apologetic about this guy not responding and didn't know why, but was happy to take on my case for the same fee if I would have her. Of course I agreed. I honestly don't remember when this happened. I'm gonna guess in Aug/23. Cuz I know it was a long time. But things started moving. And it was a lot of work, on her part. I had to go from the beginning of our lives, and tell every detail. Along with all the situations that had occurred over those short months while they were with James. Because there was a lot. He's still the same pos as he was when I was with him, and still abusing his now, on-and-off gf.

It took a long time. And by the time I was in court, trying to change the interim order (meaning, trying to prove that there are good reasons to changing my every 2nd weekend to being primary throughout the court process of pretrial and possible trial). And, by this time, my girls changed their fkn minds about coming back. lol. It had everything to do with their friends they made at their schools by this time. Their dad still wasn't proving to a safe place. But whatever, I was too far in, AND, wouldn't even consider giving up because they thought they wanted to stay there..... I ended up winning the interim order. They came back home January 31st of this year. So, been with me since. Plus, James and I are currently undergoing a court ordered "high conflict mediation" lol. We had the initial interview together and our one-on-ones with the lady assigned to us. We will have meetings throughout the summer. Fun! (smh). Then, after this, (cuz I know we won't agree to anything mutually), we will go to pretrial to let the court decide where they will live permanently. So, this fkn journey still isn't done for me.

Then, the other "big" news is: I ended up back together with Alex. This happened on my little half sisters bachelorette. She got married at the end of Aug/23. We had her party two weeks before her wedding. I drank. I remember I tried to message Brent. He didn't reply, so I blocked him. When I got home at 7am, I texted Alex. I told him I still loved him and I didn't know what to do about it. He told me he loved me too, and I told him to come get me. We slept together a couple times after that. I kept thinking that we couldn't do it again because of how we ended the last time. I kept telling him this, too. He said he understood. But I kept coming back. and not too long after, our son busted me in his bed one morning. So, we kind of used that as an excuse to not take anything back and to at least try.

Moving forward to January again. I was supposed to be starting my first practicum. (I started 3 weeks late, but not getting into that.) I also got word that my girls were to come back to me on Jan 31st. AND, I was supposed to find a new place to live because my landlord was going to sell his townhouse, so he gave me to the end of February. Everything was happening at once. It was a stressful month. I couldn't find a place in the same town we all live in. I probably could have in the city, but that wasn't something I wanted to do. So, Alec said his house was always open. It took me a long time to consider, and I had always voiced my fears about everything to him about being afraid of ending up homeless with all my kids again (oh yea! ALL of my kids are here with me. My oldest has been living with me since summer 2023 lol). Anyways, he knew. And he's trying. I see it. He's also always working, so hardly here since. So, idk. Like, it's good, and I love him. But, always feels like there's certain lingering thoughts still. But I guess I could get into that another time.

Idk if I got everything. It's everything I could think of right now. Maybe I will keep it up, if anyone cares lol.

[transgirlthanatos]

Trying to remain positive and not listen to my stupid trauma brain.

The other day there were things she did that on their own I could probably write off as her being nice and cool and a friend. But all together?

[There's not heterosexual explanation for this]

[jean-kayak]

Anon Request: Lemme drop some Mha requests for ya! 😊

Bakugo, Todoroki, Mirio, and Shinsou with their black!gf getting hit on while she was waiting on them for a date. She’s telling the rando that she’s taken and waiting on her man but he don’t wanna listen until her bae shows up 😗

Characters: Prohero!Bakugou Katsuki, Todoroki Shouto, Mirio Togata, Shinsou Hitoshi

A/N: Here you go, Anon, I’m sorry this took so long, and I’m sorry if this is absolute trash, it’s been a rough week lol, hope you like it!

💥He had been running late because his patrol ran over, so he was already on edge, fuming at the fact that a villain interfered with his date

💥You didn't mind though, understanding that hero work never has a set schedule, so you sat in the small cafe, nursing your drink as you waiting for him

💥He texted you that he was about five minutes out, and you're about to respond when someone gets your attention

💥You look up to see a guy standing in front of you. "Hey, is this seat taken?"

💥"Oh, yeah, it is, I'm waiting for someone," you respond nicely and he nods

💥"Oh, okay. I just wanted to say that I thought you were kind of cute, and if I could get your number?"

💥You give him a small smile as you cringe slightly. "Oh, uh, I'm sorry, but I actually have a boyfriend," you decline politely, and you raise your eyebrows when he waves you off

💥"Aww, come on, I'm just trying to be nice," he says, and you nod hesitantly

💥"Yeah, but, you asked for my number," you respond. "I have a boyfriend," you deadpan

💥"What he doesn't know won't hurt him," he tries

💥"Yeah, but he'll definitely hurt you," you say seriously, but he laughs your words off again, continuing to push, and you fight the smirk on your face when you see your boyfriend behind him

💥"Oi, extra!"

💥The guy freezes as his eyes widen, hearing the familiar popping sound coming from your boyfriend's hands

💥The guy turns around his eyes growing even bigger when he sees who's behind him

💥He stutters over his words before he manages to say, "I'm a huge fan."

💥"Oh, you're a huge fan," Bakugou mocks. "Is that why you're messing with my girlfriend?"

💥The guy pales as he waves his hands frantically, his head moving just as fast. "She didn't...she--"

💥"Told you that she was taken," you interrupt with a raise of your eyebrows

❄ He was running a couple of minutes late, but told you to go ahead and go in, telling you the name for the reservation

💥Bakugou raises his eyebrows at your statement and the guy sputters again before rushing out the door, and you stand quickly so that your boyfriend doesn't chase after him

💥And he wraps his arms around your waist. "I won't be late again."

❄The service was great, the waiter coming by almost as soon as you sat down despite the fact that they were pretty busy

❄You were guided pretty deep into the fancy restaurant, amazed at how extravagant it was

❄"Water is fine for now, thank you," you answer politely, and he pours the water in your glass

❄"I don't want to come off as weird, but I just wanted to say that you look really pretty."

❄"Oh, um, thank you. I'm pretty sure I'm way under dressed for a place like this," you respond, smoothing over your dress, not thinking much of the sudden compliment

❄He chuckles softly as he finishes filling your glass. "I would have to disagree," he responds quickly, and you huff softly

❄You give him a quick thank you before he tells you that he'll be back with your menu

❄You're starting to think twice about what he said, but you brush it off once again, chucking it up as him being nice as he comes back

❄"Are you alone tonight?" he asks you as you look over the expensive items on the menu

❄"Oh, no, no," you start, waving him off. "My boyfriend should be here in a little bit," you say, looking in the direction of the entrance, thinking that he must've gotten caught up by some fans

❄The guy scoffs. "Some boyfriend, right?" he comments, and you frown. "Standing up a pretty woman like you."

❄Your frown deepens as you raise an eyebrow. "That's not the case. He's just running a little late."

❄"Really? That just sounds like--"

❄A pair of hands come down on his shoulders, and you smile slightly at the sight of your half and half boyfriend standing behind him

❄"Oh, no, please keep going, sounded like I was getting to a good part of the conversation," Shouto says, activating his quirk slightly, lightly burning his shirt as a thin layer of ice appears on the other side

❄"Doesn't really look like I'm standing up my girlfriend, now does it?" The man chuckles nervously, struggling to speak

❄"Bring me a water, will you?," he finishes before lifting his hands, and the man practically runs away

☀️The weather had been really nice lately, so you both decided to have a date at the park, and you know how much he loves your dog, so you decided to bring her along

❄"Sorry I couldn't be here sooner, traffic was awful," he apologizes, giving you a kiss on your forehead before taking the seat in front of you

❄Of course, he spends the rest of the day terrorizing the guy that had the audacity to mess with you

☀️You texted him saying you were here, wondering if he was trying to scare you by appearing through the ground

☀️The only thing is that your boyfriend has a horrible concept of time

☀️And the response you got was ellipses and a text in all caps saying he'll be there in ten

☀️You roll your eyes fondly, but then they're widening when she starts off behind you

☀️Luckily, you have the leash on your wrist, so you quickly grab it at the same time you look up to see what caught her attention

☀️"I'm really sorry, she's a huge people person," you say, your eyes falling on a guy that was just walking by, and he crouches down to pet her when he rolls onto her back

☀️"It's totally cool," he says with a chuckle as he rubs over her stomach. "She's really cute."

☀️You huff softly as you shake your head fondly. "She is when it benefits her."

☀️"I was actually talking about you," he says when he looks up

☀️"Oh," you scoff softly in surprise as he stands. "Uh, thank you, but I have a boyfriend," you respond awkwardly

☀️"Oh, come on. I can't just compliment you?"

☀️"I mean, I guess? I just didn't want you to get the wrong idea," you explain, and you take a step back when he takes a step closer to you

☀️"So, where is this boyfriend of yours?"

☀️"Right here!" Mirio says cheerfully as he comes out of the ground, and you jump back in surprise as the guy lets out a shriek

☀️"Now, the real question I should be asking is why you're flirting with someone who's taken. Specifically my girlfriend."

☀️The guy's eyes are still wide, still in shock from Mirio literally appearing out of nowhere

☀️Mirio raises his eyebrows as he waits for an answer, but the guy doesn't say anything as you chuckle softly

🟣You were actually surprised he was running late since he was actually the one who really wanted to watch the movie you were going to see

☀️"Well, if you're not gonna say anything you can go." The guy's quick to run off, and Mirio turns to you saying that he was glad he was late because he got to scare someone, and you roll your eyes

☀️"And I think we have a date to start," he says before taking the leash out of your hands and taking the lead down the sidewalk

🟣He said he would pay for the tickets, so you went ahead and got popcorn to snack on while you waited

🟣He said he had gotten caught up with Eri, and that he'll be there soon

🟣You sit down on one of the benches across from the concessions, checking your phone to make sure Shinsou hadn't texted you

🟣"Anyone sitting here?" you look up from your phone, seeing the guy pointing to the cushion next to you

🟣"Oh, no. Go ahead," you say as you shake your head, scooting over a little bit

🟣"So, what movie are you here to see?"

🟣"The new action movie that came out a couple of days ago," you respond and he nods. "My boyfriend wanted to see it, so"

🟣"You're here with your boyfriend?" he asks as you put some popcorn in your mouth

🟣You nod quickly as you finish the popcorn. "Yeah, well, he'll be here in a few minutes."

🟣You lean back when the guy scoots closer. "Well, I could see it with you. I wouldn't mind going on a date with a pretty girl like you."

🟣"That's okay," you chuckle nervously.

🟣"Come on, your boyfriend's an idiot for leaving you alone like this."

🟣"I'm the idiot?"

🟣You both jump, looking in front of you to see Shinsou standing in front of you, an irritated look in his eyes

🟣Shinsou's pulling you up by your hand, his arm wrapping around your waist as he smirks

🟣The guy can barely get an answer out, but it's just enough because you can see that stoic look in his eyes

🟣"Hey, man. That stuff you got in your hands. Throw that away for me."

🟣The guy wordlessly stands, walking over to the trashcan and throwing away the full bag of popcorn and drink in it

🟣You can't help the chuckle that falls out of your mouth. "Toshi," you start, and then the guy breaks out of his state, his eyes widening when he sees that his hands are empty

🟣Shinsou sends him a wink before walking you towards the theater that's playing your movie